Writing this post is a huge step out of my comfort zone. Part of me, well really most of me, doesn’t want to publish it. But I have come to realize that, when we have that fear, is when we know that it’s exactly what we need to do. So I am going to tell you something that I haven’t really ever shared. It’s how I thought, what I wrongly believed for the past 42 years…
I have been living my life, quietly, waiting for other people to take the lead, happy to follow but never really thinking it was my place to lead. Never thinking that I was smart enough to speak my mind, make a decision… when I say this out loud I realize how ridiculous it sounds. But I just didn’t have the self confidence to believe that I had a say in things… even my own life. I left it up to other people to decide things, including what my opinion should be on, well, everything. I think my opinion on things changed depending on who I was talking to at the time! It was like I thought I didn’t know enough, I thought everybody else was more knowledgeable and therefore they must have the “right” opinion.
I feel like I’ve spent my life waiting for somebody to come and tell me what to do next. I kinda felt like that was how it was supposed to be. I would ask other people what type of job I should have, where I should live. And I would do what they told me, even when I knew in my heart it wasn’t what I really wanted. I was asking people smarter than me, so they must have the right answer… right?
I received a gift from one of my coaches recently. It is an amazing book and it truly has changed the way I think. There have been many influences which have helped me to change my mindset in the past year but this book just screamed it at me. It is a book by Seth Godin, who if you don’t know him, is a best-selling author / blogger / entrepreneur / speaker. The name of the book is (and I love this) “What to do when it’s your turn [and it’s always your turn]”
When I received the book I quickly flipped through it and on the first page it says
Your turn to:
Build a following.
Market a product.
Make a connection.
Solve an interesting problem.
Write, sing, invent, create, ask a question, launch a project, organize a protest, open the door for someone, question authority, make a short film, direct, produce, create, or adopt.
Learn a new skill.
Help someone who needs you.
Be missed if you’re gone.
and at the bottom it says “YOUR TURN TO MAKE A RUCKUS” – I love it!
I feel like this book was written for me! That’s exactly how I feel with all of the crazy things I’m doing now. It’s my turn to make a ruckus! I am no longer sitting quietly and waiting. I
may will do things that other people don’t agree with. I have no idea what the path looks like, but I’m following my vision and trying new things. One (or more) of them will be the right thing. Did I mention the latest? I just signed up for a Travel Writing course! I love to travel and I love to write… sounds perfect!
It’s really quite liberating to take control of my own life. I now make the decisions. I get to decide that I am going to go after some pretty crazy goals and dreams. It’s like a new found freedom!
I was just reading Seth Godin’s book when it struck that I needed to tell this story. I read the line “If you demand that everything that happens be something you are adequately prepared for, we wonder if you’ve chosen never to leap in ways that we need you to leap”. This relates to the post from a couple of weeks ago about having courage. I just need to do things even when I don’t have any idea how to do them. And even if the people “smarter” than me don’t think it’s a good idea. I’ll figure it out, or maybe I won’t and I’ll move onto the next thing. But living a life of boredom and safety and doing what others think I should do, is no longer an option.